stylish

Me by Jadeloli featuring Miss Selfridge Clothing

This approprialty sums me up in a simple materialistic way.
A possible non simple one is one its way :)


Ive been working hard today, or, at least a good pace for my brain.
I got home this morning from my loves place - which took around an hour when usually it takes 20 minutes in traffic due to flooding of my local area - and decided instead of venturing out in dangerous weather to uni i would stay at home and get stuff done.

Opening todays date in my diary and grabbing my new favourite bright pink pen i listed the assignments i have left and the random assortment of things i have left to do today. I have worked through a few of them so far and still enjoyed a day at home in lots of clothes to keep me warm. Im pretty determined to get my university stuff done. Im a little stressed about the idea of finishing my radio broadcasting course on top of the uni work - but i'll get there hopefully.

Im looking on the bright side and i want to keep looking to the positive things in life.
For instance im interviewing a great band this saturday, i have a event this friday night, i will get things done and im working a good amount of time to live happily and not so poorly next week.

This isnt a very immense blog - i shall update with a better one soon.

Just a bit of a vent in my public diary.

Jade

drowning

this is all i want for my birthday i've decided...
I must have it.
Its calling me.

Love in a bag

im very materialistic at times.

Blame my partner.

joy

photo by ChasingECHOES

I'm not to sure where my inspiration went in 2009. I'm not sure if it left me before i even stepped into being in 2009 or somewhere along the way. But i think it's pretty much gone.
I really want it back. Isn't it inspiration enough that i want it back? It should be, especially to myself.
Yet, im still sick and procrastinating.
I don't want to be this way.

Im doing my very best at stopping this plummeting into 'nothing' (it's not that it's nothing, but i'd rather nothing than this.)

Achievments and lists must be made,
They will be posted.
because, well why not.
Getting inspired only lasts a little while specially when ur sick and you are pretty restricted.

This little bunny up above though - she or he gives me some hope. A simple photo.
I don't know why bunnies can touch my heart in a way no other can.
I loved a bunny once. I know what it means to love a bunny and have one love you back.
It's strange how a love between an animal and human can be so memorable and a cherished past, and nothing like loving another human can sometimes be compared to it.
Just thinking of a bunny and how it may think or live inside its head interests me.
I think they're very positive and happy.
They're like a little bundle or furry joy.

Just thinking about holding one makes me happy inside.
They're so caring and loving if you love them back.
No questions asked, they just love.



Jade

ONE MONTH

co-workers by moosekleenex

I was writing this blog on all the things ive been doing to make myself feel better and how im not going to let anything get in my way. Well it didnt last very long...I got sick (again). I have tonsilitis again, but on the other tonsil. Im restricted back to home and my warm pjs, bed and laptop. I havent been outside except to go the doctors. I think i may have gotten paler, if possible!

I started going to the Gym last week again though, i paid my monthly bill to go for TWO DAYS. before i got ill, with some other thing for a few days. Pretty shitted off. Although those days at the gym where fantastic!! I have obviously gotten unfit again from being sick all the time :( BUT i want to get back to where i was and even better! Louise has introduced me to an old love of mine, skipping. Man does that make you work hard. Our regime will be awesome. When we're in holidays i bet we'll go all the time. Holidays seem to be the time were we get to do the things for us the most.

Also, on the updating of my life in general. I have started the next four unit to the certificate 3 in Broadcasting i started late last year. The certificate is in conjunction with the CBAA (Community Broadcasting Association of Australia) and i was super excited about starting it last year and found it easy to handle as i was in Uni holidays when i started and had nothing else to study, i was jobless and was doing barely anything at all. This time around im studying and doing assignments for end of semester, i have a job which i go to when i dont have to go to uni, i have 3 shows for radio while seeing family, friends and my love. It's proving a little more diffucult - while having tonsilitis. BUT i'm determined to finish this certificate within the year (If the station can organise itself...) I'm also determined to get my assignments done for univerisity. ( I wish i had wireless so i cud "rest in bed" while working as well )

In a little over 3 weeks time i will be turning 19 and im trying to also plan my birthday bash at one of my favourite places in the city, Fridays. A Saturday night with all my friends on the river of Brisbane. Sounds good to me. I have a massive list and i have to organise it - argh lets stress out about some shit some more. I'm going out that night, healthy or sick. I'm actually kind've excited to turn 19. I have my head in the right space i feel for where i expected myself to be by now, travelling and finishing studing in the next 2 years as well as all my other hopes and dreams. It'll all be done.


Random Update blog..

Chillout Continues.

Art by Nuken8 that i found ages ago
and scared me...i cmntd on it and asked
if he knew anyone who looked like this?
hair or anything. He said no. I think
it looks like me, just a little bit...

I am currently pursuing happiness.
Isn't everyone?
And if your not...WHY NOT?
Life is too short. Yes what a cliche'!
But my life is too short, the days are too short to do everything i want to do.
I have been pursuing happiness for a few days now, ( i always pursue it..but 2009 hasn't been very inspiring and that is my fault) Im over the bullshit. 2008 was great. FANTASTIC. I kept my New Years Resolution and 2009 has had the same one. But the effect seems to have warn off. Well im not going to let this rising numbness of studying consume me. Not again. I have been studying for far too long, i know that i probably need a break. But im not far off. 4 months has gone pretty quickly im sure the rest of the year and a half im stuck here will go by pretty quickly too.

Lets get inspired:

I dont care that i've posted this link before, but im sure there are more new stories in there, go check out these beautiful comments by those that follow gala it's beautiful.

Try loving yourself and if you can't dive right into it start appreciating that one thing about yourself you love and know makes you YOU. It can be inside you, outside, a way of thought, but let yourself embrace that one thing. And when you get down think about that one thing. It's amazing the tiny steps you take that actually all of sudden make you realise. "Hey im GREAT!"

Organise better! Im trying to do this. I think if maybe your life was a little more ordered, even if its the lists you write in your diary or where you put certain things your day will flow alot better.

Lets learn about the art of ZEN. Even if walking the path of enlightenment isn't your thing, it's a great thing and maybe you'll learn something interesting! I meditate to get to sleep by focusing on my breathing - it works wonders.

Love Notes to Yourself or Reminders to make your day that something extra. I've started doing this this week! Write yourself a beautiful thing at the bottom of your diary day, or a reminder, or a note to spoil yourself.

For example today's note in my diary: Finish something and FEEL accomplished. Buy yourself a coffee and enjoy it!

I know it may seem a little ridiculous but you can choose what you write to yourself, you know what you want to hear more than anyone else and sometimes its better hearing it from yourself than anyone else. (Currently completing art assignment - feeling awesome!)

Be a little vain at times, im not saying ALL the time because its just annoying to others, but let yourself be concious of what you look like cause you'll probably work on yourself and feel better, celebrate you. [Even if its working on the bits no one else sees ;) ]

Remind the others around you that you adore, love, cherish, admire their style, eyes, love, face, body, brain, voice etc. They'll feel good, you'll feel good.

[Im sitting in the library at University...2 boys were next to me...i needed so badly to pee! But i have so much stuff everywhere (im taking up a whole table worth of bags and books!) they were so kind to make sure my stuff was safe! My guardian strangers. Its wonderful. If you can..do that when you can! Be a guardian of others even if you don't know them! *when i got back, they joked about how the fended off at least 6 people...my guardian ninja strangers!]

Borrow and lend things to your friends. It'll make you feel refreshed - style wise. Your friends are over that object your over yours, but they dont own what you have and you dont own what the have. Swap occasionly. it'll feel great. Even if these things are old!

LISTEN TO MINISTRY OF SOUND CHILLOUT CLASSICS.

current inspiration, Reed photos



"nothing can come close to this familiar feeling"

Chillout

It's Saturday... by Jadeloli featuring Alexander Wang tank tops

Click the link above to see my polyvore account...its wonderfully materialistic and time consuming. I blame louise and rachel. Bad influences of the internets.
Anyway, this is one of my latest sets and i simply love making them to put them in my blog and also look at them and long for clothes such as i use in them. I shall never own most or any of these things. It's a little sad, but also fun. A friend of my parents recently suggested i cud have her blue docs that dont fit her and might fit me - i was in a state of pleasure. I must pursue this. I have always wanted docs.. i remeber this time when i was a child probably 8 and dad had docs and i used to put them and they were SO GIANT i cud barely lifted them, but i wanted them as school shoes..but ofcourse, whats the point my feet wud grow id waste all that money of shoes id never wear again. But now is the time to own them..but i dont have money. I hope these shoes being hopefully donated to me will fit. <3


Daft Punk are one of my favourite bands, hands down ( My lastFM acount told me so :s haha) Well anyway, i love looking them up, seeing what they're doing - ya know the normal teen girl stalking a favourite band.. and the news as you might have read from the link above is a wonderful little bit of news. Daft punk are doing the score to the new movie Tron 2.0, a remake is what i understand, from the movie Disney put out in the 80's called Tron. This is going to be amazing. The daft boys are AMAZING. Listen to them - everyone knows them, also watch their movies, although Interstella 5555 wasnt made by them animation wise it is their story their concepts and its beautiful. As well as Electroma. Which. i might say is heart breakingly slow and wonderfully consuming of all your feelings. With no music by daft punk and no actual talking it is one of the most amazing movies i feel i own. Most dont make it the first 15 minutes of slow movie - watching a car drive along in the middle of desert america. BUT ITS FANTASTIC. Visually and Morally stimulating. I just love them. Can't wait for 2011 and Disney's new Tron.



Through high school i never really felt right, i never felt as though i REALLY belonged there. Maybe this is due to he nature of my high school, it was a private school that, though placed in not such a wonderful area, thought it self one of the best of th best - while the 'best of the best' schools looked down on us really. It's a system of private schools, i just don't understand it. Unfortuneatly, if you graduate at one of these schools it will follow you around for the rest of eternity; or so it feels. Well High school was never pleasant - i don't have many fond memories and the ones i do have a hold dear - but high school seems to keep coming back in some form and shape, usually some bitch all my friends had tried to forget about. The funny thing about high school is i promised id never be friends with people from high school bar one person and currently my closest friends are from high school but i never really hung out with them it just happened after school. When we were free to feel and be and look how ever we please. Instead of pristine blazered iron starched machines made to go to university and act like a snob who had more money than anyone else in the world. It was a blur of green red and grey. And it was ugly. Fortunatly, however, i have escaped most of the people who harrased me, bothered me, made me sad and feel inferior. They tried for almost a year or more to get to me, to hurt me still AFTER high school. But i feel i was the better person probably becuase i didnt call when i was drunk and leave horrible messages on their phones about how they broke my heart like they did to me, i didnt attack people on social networking sites, i didnt sob to people they were friends with about how they hurt me; i didnt associate myself with their friends nor them, but they did. I have escaped. I feel free, lighter and happier that things are not so stressful as they were. But my close friend hasn't quite escaped, she thought she had, but she hasn't. Her opponent is one of mine also. Opponent, yes, i mean enemy. Becuase that's what this persons life is; a game. This one opposition doesn't give up so easily and has gotten nastier. I know the right side will win, becuase its honest and decent. But i hate looking at people like they are my opposition, my enemy, it feels crude and mean. But sadly it's true. I want this to be a great blog full of inspiration and equallity, but its humanity - no one will ever be equal, not even in the animal kingdom are thinsg equal. But i feel a lil inspired by this act of cruelness becuase i know my mate and me we're better - i dont' care how egotistical it is (this new egotism is most likely spurred on by my boyfriend, but its healthy sometimes) - we're stronger, we're determined, we're happier, healthier, stressless - unless assessment inhibits this haha- but our lives are so much better off and although it is sad to see people havent moved on, grown up or realised private school was only 5 years of our wonderful 100 years of living (hopefully) haha and i know that my mate and i are going to be successful, inspirational to others and each other, while enjoying our wonderful lives. Thats a bit of inspiration for me. And it shud be for her too.


Hair dye - So i have had blue hair now for 4 months going on 5 and i love my blue hair it's awesome but i am getting tired of it being so horrible feeling - poor bleached hair, it's slowly turning to dust im sure! Hahaha. I spend a shit load on hair products and try to maintain it but it's pretty impossibly some days. Anway, i've been saying for a few months once my regrowth gets bad this time round i will go back to my hair colour. But really! I don't think i can go from blue back to BROWN. It wud look strange and just drab. Blah. Soooo, ive been looking at some colour i cud try out - i want to go back to a natural colour so that it feels better and also becuase i am growing my hair out so that its wonderful and long :). Im thinking a hazelnut with streaks..i'm not too sure. It's so hard to give up this crazy hair colour. I cannot imagine having a normal hair colour anymore. Unless it was black and had some crazy chunks in it. I really cant think of what i wud want. I know that probably shud mean i shudnt change it - but its the gross feeling of dust hair i want to get rid off :( Oh the woes of an 18 year old.

This is an intensly long blog - i have been just updating it at random over the last few days. Hense the ice cream paragraph dot points.


This week is my inspiration week. To my regular little commenters i.e. my two closest friends hahaha post me something inspirational in those cmts. Kay. Lets help each other out and make each other happier. :) We need it specially in examish times.

Cupcake! Eat one this week to make u feel special inside. Love Jade

tiltuesday?!

Ive got only love for you by Jadeloli featuring Lanvin flat shoes

Feeling Happier today.
Want this set above.
Miss Rachel & Daniel.
Love Credit cards - my final Anne Rice book is on its way <3
Made Bunny ears - stay tuned, beautiful pictures by Louise soon.
Love cuddles..don't like sleeping alone..<3 Tom.


awesome earrings

and go here

Wanting Shins tee-shirt..
Might just buy it.
Oh wasting my Italy Savings...
Never mind. Ill wear the shirt in Italy :)


Dyed my hair DARK blue last night. It looks much better again.
:) I really love my blue hair.
I need more photos of me with it before it is dissapeared and covered with something new..
Feel like a change? Yes i am.

Want a bunny...desperatly.
To love.


Its like a tilt but TUESDAY