Tonal Variety

So i have been hitting the books pretty hardcore, trying to work my way through all the study i have to constantly be doing! I mean im doing pretty well so far :) which im rather proud of. I've never studied so hard before ever.

I am finding it diffucult to choose a focus topic for my music elective though. I mean it's really vague because i can choose anything i please to talk about. So no direction = too many things to question about. Plus if i choose something that hasnt got a large resource avenue im pretty much screwed. Oh what should i do!?
While my new media subject is just as vague allowing me to choose a topic related to web2.0 but whatever avenue i wish. Which doesnt help alot either. I'll get there though.

I was looking forward to St Patricks day next tuesday, as im from Ireland, i was going to celebrate for the first time - as this is the first time im 18 while the holiday will be going on - BUT i got paid a very sad wage today and right now have no money ALREADY. Well actually i have $4.30 to live on a day until My next pay.. I mean i can live on $3. Its just hard. Especially considering travel to uni, petrol for the car as well as just general drink/food i usually buy. I duno maybe i wont spend anything and ill be okay for st pats day - but i was going to make an outfit but i cant even afford to buy material. Its looking pretty bleak at the moment. But i dont feel so bleak. I feel really great.

I did just eat chocolate though; i am sugar and lactose intolerant. So i probably wont be feeling good in a few hours. Blurgh. Lol.

I want to write something inspirational right now but im not sure what to write.
I just wish happiness upon people.
That a positive aura transfixes itself upon those i love and even those i dont know.
Life is just way to short to have a short fuze.

Being positive is whats making me work through these hours of study.

Love Jade